Conflict

It’s surprisingly difficult to be lazy and detail-oriented at the same time.

Twenty nineteen

How is it 2019? In my head it is around 1999–I can’t keep track of all these damn years.

I decided to set a few coking goals this year: things I have always wanted to make, things I haven’t made in a long time. I would like to spend more time cooking for fun as opposed to daily survival.

The list so far (in no particular order):

• Strawberry & raspberry pie
• Key lime pie
• French onion soup
• 1 loaf of bread of any kind
• Shaking beef from Slanted Door in San Francisco
• Baked lemon pudding with wild blueberry sauce
• Fresh spring rolls
• Pork and pineapple fried rice
• 1 cheese cake of any kind
• Hold the 2nd annual Christmas Cookie Baking Extravaganza with Jen
• Use my kitchen mandolin for ANYthing

Wordy

You may only have two or three feelings, but I have millions, and I am going to talk about them forever.

It's amazing...

...the things that go through your mind when someone has their hands around your neck and is squeezing. For me, it was, "I do not want this television to be the last thing I see."

Future tense

A: "Voy a preparar su ensalada en diez minutos."

(P.S. My Spanish RAWKS!)

(P.P.S. Is that right, Cindy?)

Advice

This morning when being teased, 5 year old Darius told his father, "If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything at all!"

At least now I have an excuse.

My formerly squishy belly is taking on a new and unfamiliar firmness.

Lullabye

He knew how I needed to be loved.

Today

It feels like there is no bottom.

Bread

"Nobody else could ever know the part of me that can't let go."

Scraps

On the paper he had written "you" and he told me "that's a list of the people who are standing too close."

A posteriori

I began to think of myself in the past tense.