August 17, 2010

The unmentionables

I know you love me. You murmur it into my ear and against my hair when you are unconscious with sleep. So why can I not help but clam up when you ask me to tell you what I am feeling?

Maybe it is because we are still learning our ways around one another. Maybe it's because no one ever really wanted to hear these things and I'm not used to it. Maybe it is because I worry that if you know my true fears and worries, you won't want me anymore.

Know that when my lips are silent, my head is loud.


Anonymous said...

He will never know this but its taken me almost seven years to finally let my guard down. I think even if I told him that he would not understand. I'm still scared he will leave me everyday.

Toad's Lair said...

This comment brought tears to my eyes. I'm afraid, too.